I hope you like the new look web blog format. I have been looking at the strap line "knocking on heaven's door..." and feeling sad about it as it takes me write back to teaching the course I used to. I decided there is no point in dwelling in the past - so it is time for a change. I have always preferred to view whatever has happened to me and those I love as what has been given, quite randomly and arbitarily and so looking at something whilst seething inside is not like me - and I am not going to indulge myself - so the strap line goes.
I thought about what I wanted to celebrate in the moment - and my new heading was born on that thought.
Today has been an apparently gentle day but with a lot of hard paddling under the floaty exterior. I had a very transforming phone call the other evening which reminded me of the importance of the journey we must all take sooner or later towards authenticity and claiming our selfhood. I am giving thought at the moment to which baggage I can jetison and the results have been surprisingly liberating. I am feeling guilty about some choices I am making, but for the most part I am feeling good - but different. Something has shifted and changed - let's hope there's rock and not sand underneath. Though - what it would matter I am not sure - sand is great for castles and rock - well I would be grateful for it if I felt the tide turn.
Ditch the guilt, and follow your heart. Just remember you need sand to make good concrete and there is nothing wrong with feeling the sand between you toes. Both you and your student are right it is both you losses but it is the right time to re-invent yourself and be "fly and be free".
Love the new look blog, brilliant colours.G
Posted by: Gwen | 09/29/2008 at 08:28 AM