I am still awake - but my body isn't too keen on this state of affairs. I had a cat nap at 7am - and woke for my pills at 8am. I then turned over and tried to sleep. Weird. Today is the day my partner goes for his annual cancer check. The more focused me - up all night or not - would have been up, washed, dressed and by his side as he waited and went through his examination etc... I turned over and didn't go to sleep - napped - but the phone rang a little after 9am and I was wide awake and ready to get up. I seemed preoccupied with the fact that someone was calling and I needed to be dressed.
I have packed all my son's presents; dealt with e-mails - but the postie is yet to arrive. Next job is to wrap the various parcels for post.
The dogs are locked in our bedroom ostensibly to let me sleep. Just been down to check on them and nip to the loo. The bedroom looks like a winter wonderland. Humphrey has discovered the delights of shredding new toilet rolls and has created an original, vibrant artistic installation in the style of Tracy Ermin all over the bedroom. I shut the door and have returned to an unusually chaotic study.
The last few days I've started quite a few things and then sort of wondered off and so the room looks like I am packing to leave home. All the on-line purchases poking out of boxes - some not even opened. Some mail on a to do pile - now lost; other stuff I don't like the look of just now so I won't open yet.
I had a minor panic half an hour ago when I was sure I was hearing a new voice in my head speaking in codes - like an alien. I had put the telephone in my pocket and it had switched itself on against my voluptious rolls of gorgeousness. So no new character in the internal drama of Jane - just the phone!!!! Hyponchondria and paranoia.
My partner has just got back from his clinic appointment and he has his five year all clear. Yippppeeee. Best Christmas present. He will continue to be monitored but today is a big day. Now to think how to celebrate... ooooh the possibilities.
Wonderful to hear you are buzzing. And brilliant news about S as you said a wonderful christmas present for you both. can you email me please as my computer crashed and I can't get back on skype and lost all my contacts. Dan has started to fix it but it might take time!!!!
Enjoy the moment, I am so pleased you are enying life again. all my love top you both G
Posted by: Gwen | 12/19/2008 at 08:59 AM