Blogging whilst watcing Gordon Ramsey cook along with the nation feels as though I have finally lost all sense of reality. Much as I admire the quality of Ramsey's cuisine - I have to say I would be paying much more attention if we were cooking along with his kitchen assistant for the evening - Chris Moyles - who should have a TV slot to share his insights on life, the universe and everything - daily - maybe instead of the early evening news.
Quiet day today - resting mostly and consolidating. I checked out carefully whether I was avoiding doing things by choosing sleeping and staying in bed for much of the day. My partner and I both agreed that I wasn't. I was catching up and not anxious (for most of the time). When I was - it was for a reasonable reason and I talked myself 'down' with my partner acting as thoughts midwife.
Tomorrow, as the weather is predicted to be awful - we are probably going to play trains and paint. Log fire and fun.
Ben Wyvis looks wonderful and the bay is visited by a variety of waterfowl. Even in the gales the ducks still paddle on.
The cows are still in the surrounding fields so the dogs remain slightly perturbed when a few toddle over to the fence or look over the stone wall. They are so quiet tonight I think they all have sore throats. They should have.
I still feel good inside and when I don't I am working hard at restoring perspective. Sunday we are testing boundaries with lunch out. I find returning to the world tiring rather than anxiety making just now - but I haven't started to interract yet - that starts next week. I think it's fair to say that drowsiness goes with the territory of these drugs.
All in all I remian in a position where I am feel I am making a good start.
It is wonderful to hear you again Jane.
I think the only words for the time being must be keep taking the tablets!
You do seem to be on a different plain and things do seem to be looking up a little.
Hang in there and hold on to the good times, which seem to be more frequent.
Much love as always C
Posted by: carolynn | 01/18/2008 at 11:24 PM
You recall my sister Sheila went through a very insidious bout of depression and we nearly lost her, simply because we did not know. Doesn't that sound awful? She is 175 miles away but no excuse really. She's a member of the local church and frequently visited, and no-one told us. Having nursed others all her life she couldn't come clean about how she was feeling. THE GOOD NEWS, she has finally been found the right drug and the right dose and she's as good as new, bless her. She still will not come and live with or near us however. "No! I've work to do down here! She's 77 this year.
There's hope for us all. God Bless you and keep posting.
Posted by: Bob | 01/20/2008 at 12:20 PM