I have just stopped painting for the day. It has been a contemplative day. The wind and sleet lashing the windows in horizontal strokes - and the sea splashing over onto the grass, drenching the daffodils. A rare moment when the wind was hitting the house straight on - so as I sat at my easle I really did feel I was on board ship!
I heard news of a very old friend in hospital which was encouraging and received an uplifting e-mail from another old friend I think of as one of my most positive mentors and most comfortable companions - a former colleague. Old friends have sent cards and e-mails - we all share the desire to claim life.
Yesterday, my partner and I spotted some large boulders outside a garden centre. We have picked up three to use as markers when we inter my mum's ashes and the ashes of two dogs. Her wish was that she overlook either our view at home or her ashes be scattered at Ardmair near Ullapool. Here seems fitting. I now need to invest in a multitool and masonary bit to carve out the names before I paint. One of my stepsons trained as a stone mason. It's a shame he lives so faraway otherwise I think I'd have felt a commission coming on!
I have completed the front cover for The Sharing Space. The painting is abstract shapes. The trial photo looked promising - but I need to fiddle with the colours. I am pleased with it. My partner will need to photograph it using the tripod and in natural light and I can then send it in for consideration by the publisher.
I've started another canvas - I hate getting up in the morning and facing a blank canvas - so I put down the basics for another coastal scene. This will be a gift.
I have been reflecting alot on humility today following a conversation with a friend - also on obedience. What it means to remain obedient to a vision and risk the feelings of desolation that may accompany my faithfulness.
Kim McMillen:
When I loved myself enough I realised my mind can torment and decieve me, but in the service of my heart it is a great and noble ally.