An excellent session with my CPN today. It is extraordinarily valuable to me to have the space to voice my deepest concerns and reframe them in a safe place with a highly skilled practitioner. I left with significantly more energy than I had when I arrived! I was filled with hope and possibility. A good place to be.
My hat and bag have arrived for my foster daughter's wedding - also some earrings and necklaces to replace some of the pieces stolen whilst I was working in Birmigham a few years ago. I loved unwrapping the goodies and realising I was thoroughly enjoying these choices and feeling all woman again! They are all idiosyncratic pieces which I have chosen to celebrate my emerging self. None of them are quite what they first seem. Perfect.
I can't begin to say how excited I am about our foster daughter's wedding. I am usually terribly shy about larger gatherings - however - as I am getting stronger - I am much more in touch with my more extrovert shadow. I am also incredibly proud of our foster daughter. She was under absolutely no obligation to include us in her celebratory plans - so I was deeply touched that she should choose to. I am now more or less sorted with what I will wear - but need to take my partner shopping - I think he will have to wear something other than his customary cords and sweater! I was thinking something tweedy - but it's an early May Wedding in the South - so it doesn't sound quite right - maybe chinos and a blazer? I think I need to consult with the bride! Our son is to wear a suit - so maybe my partner should too? Help!
I am so proud of how our foster daughter has grabbed her life and made choices for herself. She's a great inspiration; very determined and very much her own person. She might yet persuade me to have a tattoo - she is hoping to train as a tattoo artist. Don't panic - I will avoid an obvious place - there's no fun in everybody seeing it!
Tonight I am hoping to continue to check the manuscript for Sharing Space. This is tedious work, but necessary. It is amazing how much gets tightened with each edit/proof read. Then I will place it into the hands of my partner - who as a former technical author will go through it again with a fine tooth comb. (We have got the nearest to divorce over my use of commas and dashes - so I will practice my mindfulness in anticipation!)
Kim McMillen:
When I loved myself enough I could tell the truth about my gifts and my limitations.
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