So much to share - but I hardly know where to begin! It is taking some time to get used to feeling this positive about life, the Universe and everything. I do feel I have had a reprieve and that I have so much to be thankful for that I am in awe.
I had a major high a while ago and was delighted by just how much I managed to get done. I have gone back onto a small dose of medication and I am now coming off that again - so I may well fly once more! The hyper periods are very productive creatively but there comes a point when my body runs out of steam whilst my head is still charging ahead! That is a lot less comfortable!
I am taking myself very seriously. I have decided to close The Sanctuary for the next year and take it over as my writing space and studio. We will turn the current library into a guest bedroom with it's french windows looking out over the shore and the Black Isle. Friends who have already visited The Sanctuary will be welcome to use this space, with spiritual direction from a local priest if required - or to just come and see us en famille. This is a time for me to grow as a person and to see my own deepest desires met - and not to seek the meeting of them in the needs of others.
I said to someone quite recently "You know, what you need is a nesting box to live in!" It took me a day or so to realise that I had spoken my own deepest need to have a exclusive space to write and paint and which is pleasant and creative - reflecting a creative future.
It will take a month of Sundays to organise - so watch this space!!!
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