Wretched Day

Jp:

The title is Jane's phrase for today which describes how she is feeling.

Yesterday Jane announced that she wasn't going back to the Therapy Unit.  (She had an appointment for this morning.)  Why?  Because nothing was happening (no apparent improvement) and she was taking resources that could be used for someone else.  What's the point?  She has spent the day in bed.

Jane didn't go to the hosptal this morning but did speak to her therapist: she has made a further appointment.

There is a lot about doing things for other people, living up to their expectations, working hard to please her therapist and seeming to be better; but underneath she is beginning to say that this doesn't feel as if it were true.  Although she wants to be better, not only for her own sake but also for other people's sake, she doesn't think any improvement has actually taken place.  She has presented as improving to please other people but doesn't feel it is genuine in herself.

Kind people have telephoned today but she is unable to speak to them, I think because she finds their concern emotionally difficult to respond to.  She is uncertain at present who 'Jane' is.

Tomorrow is another day.

Comments

[Moira Jamieson]

Dear Jayne, my thoughts and prayers are with you as you go through this soul-searching (as are the prayers of many of the TISEC students). I hope that this prayer of St. Teresa will help to sooth your troubled soul.

Saint Theresa's Prayer

May today there be peace within.

May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.

May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.

You have always been there for us - may we be there for you now.

Moira

May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

It is there for each and every one of us.

[carolynn]

Wretched day.....yes
But possibly some important stuff there also.
Trust the process...hang in there.
You are held
With love C

[Gwen]

Hang on in there. You are doing well and yes you are having it tough at the moment. But it is important to realise that YOU are recognising that and the fact that you have realised you need to get to a better place for you and NOT for anyone else is a hugh break though. As C said "you are held in our love"
Much love G