Fragmented Jane

Jp:

A further day in which Jane has had to maintain a professional exterior: her interior is in a series of pieces.  As 'priest Jane' she presents seamlessly, and those who do not know her will be totally unaware of her situation - but it is at a huge personal cost - because she is not at present at all sure who "Jane" is or what the requirements of any of her various fragments might be.  There is a numbness.

Jane's intention for Saturday is to attend a Creative Writing course, to be held about eight miles outside  Inverness: this is something that she has wanted to do for a long time.  All being well (abw), it will serve to show her that she can manage to function with an as yet unknown group of people as herself, fragmented or otherwise, and not have to put on her professional persona to cope in this setting.  The course itself should be enjoyable and, we hope, enlightening.

Comments

[Moira]

Just be yourself Jane and for once do something that you really want to do. Enjoy being creative - am thinking of you.

[carolynn]

Considering how ill you have been J ..... even to be able to present a seamless professional exterior is a massive achievement...
The cost internally is high but it also says something about drawing on very deep unknown resources when the occasion demands.
I have a very very deep admiration for you Jane.
With all our love to yourself and all the family.
As ever
C&A

[Gwen]

I can only second what the other two "posties" have said. It speaks volumes of your inner strenght J that you can present a seemless front is such a big step, well done. Enjoy your writing course, just be yourself. Each day is a step forward even when you can't feel it.
Much love to you all.G