Again, it is Jane's partner writing (maybe to become known as Jp?).
Jane has had a day of rest following yesterday's session. There are long periods of silence and a need for company - it feels, as an observer/supporter, like a very hard, lonely journey, accompanied by a huge sadness. The sadness has no form but I think there is a sense of loss, of what might have been.
Everyday events can prove difficult; she remembered to have a shower today, but not that she had also intended to wash her hair at the same time.
Jane is hoping that tomorrow (Saturday) will see her a little more prepared to get up and venture forth, perhaps to take some photos of the autumnal colours for a future painting.
Reflecting on the Thursday session, Jane has been questioning the degree to which she opend herself up, but, because of time constraints, she was then left unable to 'debrief' on what had taken place. Under normal circumstances she would be well able to handle this and draw her own conclusions and move on, but in her present parlous state she finds the situation very difficult to hold together, which seems to be contributing to her overall anxiety, rather than reducing it.
Have a good weekend.
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