Not a good morning.
Words not flowing. Thoughts can't seem to stay in one place long enough for me to catch a real sense of them. Numbness is the predominant emotion and a sense of not being able to cope with people around me and intimacy - whilst really craving physical company - but not communication.
I have put on my bobble hat which has ear flaps and makes me feel more secure and enclosed. I can't sit still however and my agitation shows either in constant leg movements, hand movements or tapping my temples. I want to be left alone but don't want to be alone. I want to be well.
The journey hurts. It's like being squeezed out of an emotional toothpaste tube.
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